Welcome to The Vault.

I’m back.  I have the need to vent, and by golly, internet, I will take it out on thee!  So I’ve been contemplating writing again, but struggling with whether or not the things I want to write about are appropriate for posting online.  I wonder: Will I offend people?  Will I receive support or backlash for my opinions?  Does anyone even care?   In the midst of my 1-woman interrogation session, I remembered a note-to-self I jotted down the other day that goes “When you rid yourself of the preoccupation with what others think, you’ll discover how many of your worries are actually YOURS.”  With that in mind, I say with all due respect, I’m going to post whatever I want, fuck everything else—THE END.

I will call this place The Vault.  Here, I plan to eviscerate the inner workings of my delicate soul, turn that shit into words, and post it to fulfill that teeny tiny part of me that still wishes I was actually a writer.  Be forewarned, I may rant, ramble, write poetry, and maybe even PWI (Post While Intoxicated, smh – I’m an idiot), but goddammit, I will be HONEST.  That much can be counted on.

Like every other human, I am multi-faceted.  Sometimes I’m virtuous, sometimes critical, sometimes superwoman, sometimes in need of saving, sometimes feeling on top of the world, sometimes feeling under a ten ton pile of shit, and a whole lot of other things in between.

Like every other human, I take on many roles – some by choice, others not.  I’m a daughter, sister, girlfriend, nurse, friend, and occasionally when the lights are off and no one is around, I get to be just me instead of someone else’s something.  I understand that we’re technically ourselves all the time, but sometimes I feel like as long as we have other people’s eyes or ears on us, a piece of us belongs to those eyes/ears, and in those moments we don’t fully belong to ourselves.  No, I’m not on mind-altering substances while I write this.  No, I’m not being sarcastic.

Point blank – I just want to write.  That’s all I’m doing this for.  I just want to write.

Welcome to The Vault.